tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22324525254934015482024-02-19T11:49:12.005-04:00FledgedAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-54489571739489588832014-05-07T21:40:00.001-03:002014-05-07T21:40:29.574-03:00Cha- cha- cha- changes!<p><font size="2">I feel surrounded by – no, encompassed by? or more like “chased down the street and beaten with a stick” by – changes. And this is coming from someone who used to LOVE change, surf it like a wave and do little dances as it was happening, thrilled by the newness of whatever was happening. Right now, though? I’d give anything to keep just one solid square of the security of my current/former life under my feet right now.</font></p> <p><font size="2">In no particular order:</font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2">Ky is coming home for the summer. Freshman year of college under his belt, and my Freshman year of empty nesting coming to an end. How did it go by so FAST? I feel like I’ve just learned how to live alone again and be a good “phone mom” and “occasional weekend mom” and now my chick is flapping back to the nest. Huh.</font></li></ul><br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <ul> <li>The biggest of my two jobs has ended. The career I’m transitioning away from has left the building. The career I’m transitioning TO? Not here yet. It must be late. I’m like 99% sure I haven’t been left at the career altar. 90% sure, minimum. Like 89.5%. Whatever – it’s like they say: “Out with the old… then stand there awkwardly and watch ‘the old’ get smaller in the distance and ponder the complexity of the universe as you momentarily contemplate chasing ‘the old’ down and begging it to come back.” <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></li> <li>The house I’m renting is being sold! And there goes the last legitimate reason for me remaining in the same town and same home I’ve lived in for 10 years. This is the longest I’ve ever lived in one place since childhood. And it no longer makes sense, what with my commute and the cost of living etc etc etc. I’m spending 20% of my waking hours in the car, driving to or from work. I’m spending 10% of my household budget on GAS to do all that driving. This house no longer makes sense. But I love it. And I’ll miss it. And moving right now? Feels terrifying in this sea of change and uncertainty. Not to mention moving is a HUGE pain in the ass. </li></ul> <p>How am I dealing with all this change, you ask? Why, with yoga, running and deep and healthy meditation. (And by yoga/running/meditation I mean back to back episodes of Orphan Black in bed in my pajamas, way too much Wolavers India Pale Ale and frantic calls to my mother asking if she’d like to buy the building I live in and become my new landlord). </p> <p>In other words, taking it like an adult.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-79605698387373364182014-05-07T12:47:00.001-03:002014-05-07T12:49:09.350-03:00Found<p>…in an old book, my attic, my house.</p> <p> </p> <blockquote> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To have something wonderful by creating nothing</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To put your spirit into your life, to your now</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To concentration on the important things</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To pay attention to yourself</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To exist.</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">To be beautiful. Ugly. Haunted. Innocent.</font></em></p> <p align="right"><em><font color="#666666" size="3">I do love you. Fucked up.</font></em></p> <p align="right"> </p></blockquote> <p><em><font size="2">“I was so frustrated to miss you on Thursday. I know you said it was no problem, but to me it was a big deal, since there isn’t an old friend or hang out I’d rather have seen than to spend time with you. In consolation, I spent 3 hours swimming in the Gulf. I’d forgotten how warm and salty it is, how organic it smells, how it’s constantly in motion. How buoyant and safe you feel in the waves. So much more nurturing than the water I swim in now. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I get really attached to bodies of water in a way I never seem to attach to the places I live, and I kind of have an intense personal relationship with the Gulf in that it has absorbed a countless number of my most intense emotions over the years. I’ve poured so many thoughts, ideas, hope, pain and plans into it. It’s like we have an intimate relationship now. And swimming in it makes me feel so safe and at peace. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">…which is also how I felt with you Tuesday. I said “natural” and you said “at peace” and to those I’d add “safe” because that’s really what it was. Not that swimming in the Gulf is a perfect substitute for being with you, but if I had to miss you on Thursday, it was a good place to be. And anyway, the water is a good thinking place for me. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">You were fantastic about communicating everything you were thinking and feeling while I was there. And I think I was so overwhelmed at times that I couldn’t immediately tell you what it meant to me. Sometimes I need to walk away and think before things sort themselves out in my heart.</font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I need to know if you are happy in your life. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">Is this what you wanted? You said so often that I wouldn’t like the person you’ve become. Do you like that person? Is it what you want for yourself? I’m stronger inside than I look. I think about love, and it’s easiest for me to relate things to Sarah – there is not an avenue she could choose, or a person she could “turn into” that I would not accept and love. Since I want her to be happy, some personas and choices would be harder to understand and accept, and I would always encourage her in directions that make her feel good about herself, and her life, abut accept them and love her I would. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">Likewise, though I don’t know the details of your life, I do know that had I been given a chance, I would have felt the same for you.</font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I told you, you and Sarah are all I know of that kind of love. I’ve never gotten to develop it with you, but I do know what I’m capable of, and it’s a lot more than I expected of myself back then. If I’ve gotten to know you on a different level than ‘everyday’, then I’m proud of that, and if the kinder and gentler side makes you happy, then this is what I hope you cultivate. If you’re happy in the rest of your life, then I can’t think how I’d not want that for you.</font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">And what about the person I’ve become? you’re also seeing a much different side of me. I don’t use the word “love” in my relationships, I’m not especially warm, I take independence to a new level and I’m constantly told I’m “missing something” inside – which of course I am. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I’m amazed and touched at how closely you’ve followed my life. I wish I could do the same – and I’d love to – but you seem so uncomfortable with me seeing your real life, and nevermind that it’s not as easy to trace as my life is. Also, there’s nothing you’d see about me that could hurt you.</font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">It’s amazing how similar our experiences were when we parted all those years ago. I knew you cared, I knew you must have hurt too, but I thought that the excitement and newness of your marriage would have made up for any regrets you felt over me. I never imagined you felt as much sadness and yearning as I did. I contacted you again a few years ago because it had been so many years, and yet I was still having dreams about you that were vivid, and sad. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I tried to put it behind me. That note on the Chinese food bag I saved all those years went into a winter solstice bonfire in 1999. I kept wondering when I could move on. Not that I constantly thought about you – after a while I really didn’t – but you were certainly the monster under the bed in all of my relationships. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">I told you that I never really talked about you to my friends – and I didn’t – but just recently on a cruise a good friend was really hurt by a woman he loved who left him to marry someone else. I could practically feel the exact emotion he was feeling. And I did tell him a bt about us, how I felt with you, how I felt when you left. I told him that I could still feel the love in such a way that I could practically trace its shape and location in my body. And I could also still feel the size and shape of the pain, too. And that if it’s real, it just becomes a part of you and that’s as close to the other person as you will get again. </font></em></p> <p><em><font size="2">Well, this was a year ago – not knowing ----“</font></em></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-23983183600479621722014-04-30T17:10:00.001-03:002014-04-30T17:13:09.167-03:00Fare thee well April! I kicked your butt and took at least one name.<p><font size="7"><font face="Berlin Sans FB"><font color="#f79646">--> <strike>Hello</strike> Goodbye April!! <--</font></font></font></p> <p><font size="2">Only two weeks until Ky is home for the summer (ack!!!!) and, combined with the end of April, I’m feeling quite reflective today. Sometimes when I’m involved in working really hard for something and I haven’t QUITE made it a reality just yet, I feel like I’ve gotten nowhere. If that brass ring isn’t in my hand, I see it as a failure, regardless of how many inches closer to it I am this month than I was the one before. </font></p> <p><font size="2">To get away from this I’m going to try to remind myself of all the things I’ve pushed forward this month – even things that didn’t pan out perfectly (the 9999 ways to not make a lightbulb and all that…).</font></p> <p><font size="2"><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/the-tedious-goodbye-lunch-scenario-at.html">Left</a> the least favorite of my two jobs! This has to get top billing.</font> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">Actually FINISHED, with excellent work ethic and grim determination – in a series of 60 hour work weeks – the work I had left at the least favorite job. Omg. Done.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Was offered enough solid work in my second job to take me through December in relative comfort! Woohoo!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Didn’t let the HUGE rejection I received to a program I’d been pretty much counting on get me down for long…</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">…but instead turned it into a different sort of opportunity that seems to be suiting my mind, my finances and my schedule even better than an acceptance might have.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Scheduled time with my old career transition coach for a tune up.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Registered for a super cool class this summer!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Reached out to (let me check) 12 different organizations that could move me forward in my (new, wannabe) field.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">… and got positive feedback and even some offers from 3 of them (1 is especially exciting!)</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Did a Tough Mudder --> Survived!!!!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Made a <a href="http://freemind.sourceforge.net/wiki/index.php/Main_Page">Mindmap</a> of all of the intricate plans, thoughts, ideas and different potential avenues for the next 6 months of my life, all based on my core values.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Woke myself up in the middle of the night to write an email I had been dreading – I think I’m glad I did this.</font> <li><font size="2">Spent twice as much time with friends as I ever have – I <em>know</em> I’m glad I did this!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Put together <a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/p/career-transition.html">all of my thoughts about getting myself career transition coached</a>, and blogged about it.</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Really took the time to connect to my child, my students, my family members and my friends - without distraction or impatience. <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">Wrote 6 professional applications including the neverending coverletters, statements, philosophies and specific relevant experience descriptions – this is roughly equivalent to a full 40 hour work week in terms of man hours!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">Ran 173 miles and enjoyed about 150 of them completely!</font> <br clear="all"><br clear="all"> <li><font size="2">(listened to Harry Potter Audiobooks 1.3.4.5.and 6 – does this count????)<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></li></ul> <p><font size="2">Actually there’s even more than this but I’m kind of shocked ----- I DID all of this in April?<br></font></p> <p><font size="2">Yup. (back pats all around)!</font><font size="2"></p></font> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-67859604243784015872014-04-28T11:44:00.001-03:002014-04-28T11:56:34.343-03:00Hiring a career transition coach Part III: the coaching process<blockquote> <p><em><font size="2">Keep in mind that this is just my experience with coaching, and yours will probably take a different route</font>. </em></p></blockquote> <p>When I’ve told my friends that I have a “coaching session” (I still feel kind of embarrassed saying that, always reverting to my blue collar roots & wondering if I shouldn’t have just ‘worked harder’ at it myself?) – my friends almost all ask me, in a kind of unconvinced tone, “I mean cool, really, it’s cool that you’re doing this… but… what does the coach actually <em>do</em>? Does she just, like, <em>encourage</em> you? Or does she tell you what to do next?”</p> <p><font size="2">Fair questions, because that’s what I wondered too </font><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/hiring-career-transition-coach-part-i.html"><font size="2">when I started pondering career transition coaching</font></a><font size="2">. In fact, in </font><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/hiring-career-transition-coach-part-ii.html"><font size="2">my search for a career transition coach</font></a><font size="2">, I made a point of asking them “What do you actually DO? What does a coaching session actually look like?” <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></p> <blockquote> <p><strong><font size="2">Some of them answered in the negative space:</font></strong></p> <ul> <li><font size="2">It’s not therapy. </font> <li><font size="2">it’s not being told what to do.</font><br clear="all"><br clear="all"></li></ul></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><strong></strong><font size="2"> <strong>The best answers were less bullet-friendly, but are in the category of:</strong></font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <ul> <li><font size="2">A coach can help you articulate your strengths and weaknesses, especially as they impact your career.<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">And to identify what your overall goal is, in a career (make money? be happy? help people? be creative? find a work/life balance? bury yourself in your work? adventure? security? all of the above?) <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font><font size="2"></font> <li><font size="2">..and then you can work out what parts of your personality, work ethic, education, drive, ambition and skill set will come in to play in different career scenarios.</font></li></ul></blockquote> <p><strong></strong><font size="2"> </font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong><font color="#4f81bd">Spoiler alert:</font></strong> in my case it covered all of these things, but much more. There was a less clinical, more personal aspect that tied in my personality and passion and energy level with my skills and interests and rhythm. It turned out not to be a ‘worksheet/bulleted point’ sort of process. Going in, I didn’t know this and the thought of using words like “passion” and “personality” would have scared me off. Once I was actually involved in the process, I totally understood how it all fit together and worked as a whole. I don’t think I would have gotten much help or insight out of a set of worksheets.</font></p> <p><strong></strong> </p> <p><strong><font size="3">Preparation</font></strong></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2">My coach and I had already talked a bit about the current state of my career during our </font><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/hiring-career-transition-coach-part-ii.html"><font size="2">getting-to-know-you session</font></a><font size="2">. She knew I was in a very small and specialized area of academia, she knew I was very unhappy there, she knew in general the broad brushstrokes of what field I was aiming for, and she had a general picture of my life outside work (single parent, only child in high school, very little family support, bit of an introvert, lots of drive and energy in my personal life).<br clear="all"><br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2">Before our first session, she gave me several questions to think about and answer. I won’t repeat them verbatim, but they mainly fell somewhere in these three categories:<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></p> <ol> <li><font size="2"><strong>What am I trying to leave behind in my current career?</strong> </font> <li><font size="2"><strong>What are my goals for the career I’d like to have instead?</strong> </font> <li><strong><font size="2">What would I like to get out of coaching?<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></strong></li></ol> <p><font size="2">--> I spent a lot of time thinking about each of her questions – really thinking about them. I wrote down the most obvious answers and then I looked deeper. If during the course of trying to answer the family of questions that fell into the first two categories there were things I simply didn’t know, or hadn’t figured out yet, I added them to category 3. <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></p> <p><font size="2">--> I also took it upon myself to review my CV and really think about each job I’d held in the past. What I thought about it in retrospect. What I remembered feeling about it in the moment.<strong> [<em>I’m so glad I did this – eventually we did a lot of work looking back over my work history and taking apart the different pieces of each job I’d held in terms of my skills, my feelings while doing the work, my work/life balance, etc – this turned out to be one of the most eye opening parts of the coaching experience for me.]</em></strong></font></p></blockquote> <p><strong></strong> </p> <p><strong><font size="3">So what DOES happen during the sessions?</font></strong></p> <ul> <li><font size="2">My coaching sessions took place (by mutual agreement) over the phone. We could also have Skyped, but I find Skype really distracting and would prefer to keep my deep-thinking-hair-twirling habit to myself. <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">Our sessions were 90 minutes in length, and every minute of that was thoroughly used. We covered a lot of ground! The fact that I was well prepared for each session was one of the keys to the success of the process. <strong>I can’t emphasize enough how important it is to do a lot of work outside the session itself in order to maximize the time spent talking to the coach</strong>.<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">We spent some time visiting (and revisiting) </font> <ul> <ul> <li><font size="2">My core values </font> <li><font size="2">My strengths </font> <li><font size="2">My past work experience, and the positives and negatives involved in each of my previous positions. </font> <li><font size="2">How my core values, strengths and needs could ideally play out in a professional sense </font> <li><font size="2">My ideal work environment </font> <li><font size="2">My ideal work/life balance<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font></li></ul></ul> <li><font size="2">Each session was recorded, and I was given access to the sound recording of our call after the session. I appreciated that I could access them and always meant to listen to them again, but I never did. The feelings and ideas I had after each session stuck around better if I let them bubble in my head without revisiting the specific questions that gave rise to them (this is just how I work, YMMV and all that)<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">My coach also took notes during the session, typed them up and emailed them to me within 24 hours. <strong>Those</strong> <strong>have proven invaluable to me</strong>. I still go back and read them a year later – that’s how well they summarized what she heard me saying.<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <ul> <li><font size="2">You know how your voice usually sounds weird to you when you hear a recording of it? That’s how weird my words sounded when someone else was summarizing them. Obviously I’d heard what I was saying – they were my own thoughts and ideas and statements – but reading someone’s “take home message” of those words was bizarrely enlightening. I felt like I was reading about a different person. <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <li><font size="2">And you know how it’s always easier to give someone else advice and see the patterns in someone else’s life? Yeah – that’s how I felt reading the summary of our sessions. This “other person” coincidentally also named Emma – well, it was kind of ridiculous that she couldn’t see the obvious patterns in her career.<br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <p><font size="2"><img style="float: left; margin: 13px 40px 7px 0px; display: inline" align="left" src="http://static.someecards.com/someecards/usercards/MjAxNC0yZDQ0YzYzMGQyMjNmOGRk.png" width="296" height="224"><strong>Why did she KEEP making those same unhappy choices? </strong></font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong>How can she not see that she’s been using the same excuses and lines of reason for like 20 years? And there hasn’t been a compelling reason for them in like 15 years? </strong></font></p> <p> </p></li></ul></li></ul> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>--></strong> <strong>Why doesn’t Emma just take some of that energy she’s throwing down a bottomless dark well of despair and instead put that energy into something better? My gosh, you’d think she LIKED being a work martyr. Doesn’t she WANT to be happier?<br clear="all"></strong></p></blockquote></font><font size="2"> <p> </p></font> <ul> <li><font size="2">Within the write up after each session, my coach would also include for me some of my beloved bulleted point lists in outline form: <br clear="all"><br clear="all"></font> <ul> <ul> <ol> <ol> <li><font size="2"><strong>What our goals had been for the current session </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Career/work strengths </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Things/Feelings/environments I don’t want for my career life </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Things/feelings/environments I do want for my career </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Coach’s observations (outsider’s view of what I was saying) </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Goals for the next session </strong></font> <li><font size="2"><strong>Any resources, reading suggestions, homework/preparation for the next session</strong></font></li></ol></ol></ul></ul></li></ul> <p><font size="2"><br clear="all">--> By the way, re-reading the write ups for these sessions has reminded me that I totally, completely chose the right coach for me. She really hit this out of the park.</font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2">Next up: <strong>Hiring a career transition coach Part IV: the outcome</strong>. I think this will give a semi-realistic sense of what solid, tangible successes came out of my career transition coaching. </font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-67089635820137782282014-04-28T08:09:00.001-03:002014-04-28T08:09:43.524-03:00Monday morning inspiration<p><font size="2">…from the person I believe to be one of the most inspirational human beings on the planet. </font></p> <p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSKZHKHm2XpoUGB6ohyhEqraDMoGDtwZfk4YIhWuFNnAJOpKigWUD4_ihedJsbMtCFJsAVbMaIl6BXKvegxzZjUTfqVAWu0kAcFdqeEkx2zyZfFSFX6Zz5uJ7JhMLqPSKKTHPJMdiZosLx/s1600-h/janegoodall%25255B4%25255D.jpg"><img title="janegoodall" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="janegoodall" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDOJWGbiaNCvSSzPta_5wYFOxS58jRZikzEOAx8Efy0CmhJao73qNKiQjt7SOV-Y7vAG2NyiIKChB87zMjA8rx6XXQ2UQXlAeoCdlklZbCjY0WyavuBIKvbhllK_YTeQ8q2iIdgKQ-4HVd/?imgmax=800" width="505" height="457"></a></p> <p><font size="2">I think “patience” is going to be my watchword for the day.</font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-31983980087057170342014-04-27T10:41:00.001-03:002014-04-27T10:53:06.529-03:00Hiring a career transition coach, Part II: finding the right fit<p><font size="2">In my last post I talked about </font><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/hiring-career-transition-coach-part-i.html"><font size="2">some of the reasons I had for hiring a career transition coach</font></a><font size="2">. What it came down to was that I’d worked incredibly hard and gotten a really prestigious position in my field, but once the high of that achievement started to fade, the toll the high stress position was taking on my body, mind, family, my parenting and my enjoyment of the rest of my life was becoming overwhelming to me. Sloooooowly, very slowly, I was able to admit that I wanted to leave it behind me and do something I found a lot more meaningful. </font></p> <p><font size="2">Once I made the decision to hire a coach, I did a lot of research into the different types of coaches available to someone like me. I’d heard of “life coaches” and understood that some of them could help with life balance and career transitions, but I wasn’t sure if a life coach would be targeted enough for me. I can be a “cut to the chase” kind of person in my professional life, and I wanted someone who could cut to the chase along with me. So I set about picking a category of coach that fit my needs.</font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2"> <hr> </p></font> <p><strong><font size="3"></font></strong> </p> <p><strong><font size="3">I. Identify the type of coach for your needs.</font></strong></p> <p><font size="2">Here’s my list and the exact notes I made when I was reviewing my options:</font></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>1. Life coach</strong> – <em>categorizing life stages, identifying obstacles, finding paths to achievement/growth/happiness in multiple areas of life, e.g. parenting, relationships, career, work/life balance, etc.</em></font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>2. Resume and job application editing and interview coaching service</strong> – <em>specific to editing and targeting your professional CV, cover letter, interview talking points and strategies.</em></font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>3. Career transition coach</strong> – <em>addressing underlying goals that aren’t being served in current career, how those goals can be met in next career, and strategies for using skills and strengths to move forward into new career that meets goals.</em></font></p></blockquote> <p><font size="2">The Career transition coach (#3) was pretty much exactly what I needed just then, as ideally it would be a good balance between working out my big-picture goals and the specifics of the career building process. </font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p><font size="2"> <hr> </font> <p><strong><font size="3"></font></strong> </p> <p><strong><font size="3">II. Identify must-haves and research, research, research.</font></strong></p> <p><font size="2">This is the list I wrote of my own “must haves” and after doing a lot of research I discovered that you <strong><u>can be picky</u></strong> in looking for a coach. There are a lot of certified coaches out there, and they have come from a huge variety of career backgrounds. When I first wrote this list I thought it might be too specific and I’d have to compromise on some of the points – I didn’t. In fact narrowing the coaches I found down to just 3 was pretty hard, since I found so many that matched.</font></p> <p><font size="2">My list:</font></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>1. Certification</strong> by the <a href="http://www.coachfederation.org/index.cfm">International Coaching Federation</a>. The certification comes with a commitment to a certain set of ethics, and I wanted to make sure my coach had made this commitment. </font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong>2. Specialty in career transition coaching: </strong>I wanted someone who was not just listing “career transitions” as one of a long list of potential life situations they could advise on, but someone who seriously specialized in career transitions. Ideally they would have references related to their abilities in this area. </font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong>3. Experience in my specific professional field.</strong> I didn’t want a business coach, as the rules of my own career field are very different. I wanted someone who would understand the unwritten rules and “insider” expectations of my field without me having to spell them out. Which meant they’d either have to have been in my field, or they’d have to have successfully worked with enough clients like me to have become a <em>de facto</em> insider. </font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong>4. Online access:</strong> I didn’t want to be limited to coaches in my geographical area. I wanted someone who would be comfortable using Skype, phone and email contact.</font></p> <p><font size="2"><strong>5. Free initial consultation:</strong> The only way I’d know if the chemistry is right was by getting to know the coach and their communication style. I needed someone who communicated well with me, and who had the upbeat but no-nonsense pace that I respond to best.</font></p></blockquote> <p><font size="2">I made a short-list of 3 potential coaches, all women (I didn’t have a gender preference, it just happened that way) and set up preliminary phone or Skype consultations with them, all in the same week. I wanted to give each consultation enough time to settle in my mind, but I didn’t want to drag the process out too long. I started on a Monday and gave myself until Friday to make my choice.</font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p><font size="2"> <hr> </font> <p><strong><font size="2"><font size="3"></font></font></strong> </p> <p><strong><font size="2"><font size="3">III. The initial consultation</font> </font></strong></p> <p><font size="2">I think this part of the hiring process isn’t given enough weight in how-to guides, though it’s hugely important. My advice would be to think about the career goals you have and come up with a list of questions that would essentially ask the potential coach, in a nutshell: “how you will help me meet these goals?” </font></p> <p><font size="2">Here’s the list I made to evaluate the 3 coaches during my free consultation:</font></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2">1. <strong>Availability</strong> </font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2"><em>communication method</em> </font> <li><em><font size="2">dates/times</font></em></li></ul> <p><font size="2">2. <strong>Experience in my field</strong> </font></p> <ul> <li><em><font size="2">What is their experience in this field, either personally or through previous clients? </font></em> <li><em><font size="2">What specific strategies would they use to help someone in my field that differ from other (business, retail, etc) fields?</font></em></li></ul> <p><font size="2">3. <strong>Coaching process</strong></font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2"><em>How do they work? – what is their process, will we do exercises, homework?</em> </font> <li><em><font size="2">Do they record sessions, do they summarize them and reiterate the take-home messages or is that up to me? </font></em> <li><font size="2"><em>Do they seem directed, focused, action-oriented and practical – but also empathetic?</em> </font> <li><font size="2"><em>Do they listen? Take in what is said and respond? (rather that focusing on a particular learned set of exercises, or sales pitch) <—</em>this was something I was worried about for some reason… </font> <li><em><font size="2">Are they comfortable with a firm end point? - if I tell them I would like to have X weeks/sessions of coaching and to create a plan for that amount of time, are they willing to work with that? </font></em></li></ul> <p><font size="2">4. <strong>Gut feeling</strong></font></p> <ul> <li><em><font size="2">Do I like them? Do we ‘get’ each other? </font></em></li></ul></blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>--></strong> The point on this list that turned out to be the most helpful? <strong>#4. Gut feeling.</strong> </font></p> <p><font size="2">But to really get the gut feeling, I had to talk to them about everything else on the list. Because to be honest, I didn’t know which process or exercises would be most helpful – I just wanted to hear them talk about them, and respond to direct questions with equally direct answers. The answers themselves are their livelihood and their area of expertise, so I was guessing that most of them would sound good to me.</font></p> <p> </p> <p><font size="2"></font></p><font size="2"> <hr> </font> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2">If you’re interested, this was the breakdown for the three people I interviewed:</font></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>Coach #1:</strong> We had a 30 minute Skype session and I was surprised to see that she lived in Europe (this wasn’t apparent on her website, since her business practice is all online), and that she was about 9 months pregnant. At that point I started thinking that the scheduling would be tricky, as I was aiming for a 2 month plan and at some point during that time she would end up with a newborn, and that type of time commitment + the Europe/US time difference might make things hard to schedule. Also she was a pretty “let’s not set limits, but just start talking and see where this goes” type of person. That would be great for a lot of different areas of my life, but not what I wanted for this particular one. </font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"> <strong>Coach #2:</strong> We had a 30 minute phone call. This coach was pragmatic, detail oriented and logical. She was experienced in my field. She was very smart, had references, had availability, and got to the question about aligning things with a firm end point even before I did. She was everything I could possibly have asked for on paper. She checked every single box I had. She also totally scared me! I kept wondering if she wasn’t someone who had actually WORKED AT the same University I was just transitioning out of. By the time I got off the phone with her I was paranoid, my stomach had started to ache and my stress level was rising like a rocket. Nope. </font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>Coach #3:</strong> Oh thank goodness. We had a 45 minute phone call (it was scheduled for 30 minutes, but at the 30 minute mark we weren’t done and she chose to finish our talk rather than rush off the phone). She started the call by telling me that she smiled when she read my initial email to her, as it was exactly the sort of email she’d have sent a career coach with the same type of expectations. It’s not like we were chatting “like friends” but she was definitely in the family of personality types I choose to surround myself with. She was detail oriented and logical, but she was also much more flexible in the way she approached the details than I was – and this was like gold in the bank to me. I felt like I’d already had a coaching session in that consultation talk. I seriously left that call thinking about a new way to approach some of the problems I was having. The gut feeling box was checked 10x over during that call. Obviously this was the coach I went with!</font></p></blockquote> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2"><strong>Next: Part III: The Coaching Process</strong></font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2"></font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-50496007957817893752014-04-26T09:33:00.001-03:002014-04-27T10:43:03.786-03:00Hiring a career transition coach (Part I: why I hired a coach)<p><font size="2"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitCwjVOFPoAsk0RKliSaY2GkBL03kSRKGomsky4U8kJEonQcOv7Gw7H6ucgBzZozz0XIeX2M3QzaTkWKwLsjANFcEIfuvrjfAKeOOUDV_TV1BXPV_51y7KsmmqJ11Lre98j9WeL8Z_TUz5/s1600-h/change%25255B29%25255D.jpg"><img title="change" style="border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; float: left; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin: 4px 39px 4px 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px; border-top-width: 0px" border="0" alt="change" align="left" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja71xJXZ_FD6IIzVPsfeahYJPAuS08_BxOL3v55E6hSLnLv8b7z92mKmFJTaosM86xm7k-T4kNHsLgFzUoKLQKiNWin_bwi0l62WT7bxmcbywUJJnyaSUcghwSGqjy_aSmzfiUILLZIsVb/?imgmax=800" width="162" height="164"></a>I thought I would write a bit about my search for (and use of) a career transition coach, since I was grateful for any information I could get my hands on when I was trying to figure out if I wanted to use one myself. </font></p> <p><font size="2">I had tons of reservations about hiring someone - usually I just get help from reading, googling, working things out on paper and going for long runs to work through the details - so I was pretty surprised and hugely grateful that I ended up getting more out of the experience than I expected going in. </font></p> <p><font size="2">So with the disclaimer in place that I’m not even going to mention the woman I used by name – I’m not advertising, nor am I getting anything out of this – I’m going to write about the process I used to find an intelligent, pragmatic, empathetic and intuitive but still pretty tough and effective coach, and then the process we used together to articulate my needs and my goals for the new career so I could make the right choices and eventually forge my own action plan to get there. </font></p> <hr> <p><strong><font size="3">Why I hired a coach.</font></strong></p> <p><font size="2">For a while I was embarrassed to tell my friends that I’d hired a career transition coach. “Life coaching” was something of a joke in my circle, somewhat akin to talking about “my guru in Nepal” or “my second cousin’s vegan diet coach.” I didn’t think of myself as the type of person to hire a coach, and I wasn’t even admitting to myself that I wanted out of the career I was in a the time. </font></p> <p><font size="2">So here’s how it happened. </font></p> <p><font size="2">The scene? A thrift store called Savers. My son Ky and six of his closest friends searching the racks for something they could turn into compelling Anime costumes. Me? Probably worrying about my absence (at 10am on a Sunday) from the high pressure University where I was working, and probably clutching my stomach, half bent over from the stress and anxiety of not being seen at work 7 days a week. Was I giving the impression that I valued something more than work? Was I going to be Mommy-tracked for taking time off work for my son? Those were my worries back then. </font></p> <p><font size="2">I sat in the book section of Savers, which was the only section of the store with chairs that weren’t chintz and weren’t for sale. I distinctly remember perching on the edge of a chair and feeling kind of… I don’t know, maybe confused? heartsick? Kind of like I recognized that I was doing something completely normal, shopping with my son and his friends, but I wasn’t feeling normal about doing it. I was feeling guilty to the point of illness that I wasn’t at work, and then feeling even more guilty that I wasn’t enjoying time with my son. I knew there was a huge realization attached to this, an elephant in the room that I was trying very hard not to acknowledge, but I stuffed those thoughts back inside and distracted myself by leafing through one of the books that someone had left out on the table. The book was Expecting Adam by Martha Beck. </font></p> <p><font size="2">What was really interesting is that I flipped open the book and randomly started reading the point in her autobiography where she was busy working at a high pressure University and getting stomach cramps and majorly ill from stress, and from worrying about how she would appear to her superiors if she prioritized something other than work. I related to her story so strongly in that moment that I bought the book and read the entire thing in one sitting. After reading it through, I downloaded her audiobooks and listened to those one after another, filled out countless worksheets and journals and dream diaries. In her story, Martha Beck leaves the high pressure University and transitions her career and her life, and things got exponentially better for her. I envied her bravery hugely. </font></p> <p><font size="2">This isn’t a post about Martha Beck – her book just happened to pop up in front of me in a rare moment I was primed to listen to the take home message, and it was what started me thinking about career transitions and letting go of the parts of my life that were causing me the most stress and unhappiness. The more I thought about these things, the clearer it was to me that I really wanted to leave my high stress career, but I wasn’t sure how to come up with a reasonable action plan – or if I even had the guts to do it.</font></p> <p><font size="2">I did a lot of research and made a lot of lists of life priorities, passions, interests, finances, major skills and goals. Over time I felt like I had a lot of the pieces in front of me, but I didn’t know how to put them together or which parts of my thoughts and ideas were realistic and which were pipe dreams or dead ends. Was I being brave or immature by thinking of leaving my high pressure career behind? Did I have a realistic vision of what I wanted to do next, or just a vague and hazy idea of what I didn’t want to do?</font></p> <p><font size="2">I started feeling like I needed to bounce ideas off someone. Someone who was a professional, who had moved in similar professional circles and knew the territory, the politics, the feelings and motivation and realities of my profession. While friends and family were generally supportive of me, their support was caring and personal. And I loved and needed that caring, but I also needed some professional advice, bulleted points, action plans and mapped-out possibilities. I put the tentative search term “career transition coach” into google, and found out that YES, they totally exist, in great numbers, and that my next job would have to be figuring out exactly which kind I was looking for. </font></p> <p><font size="2"></p></font> <p><font size="2">Next - </font><font size="3"><strong><a href="http://fledgedchick.blogspot.com/2014/04/hiring-career-transition-coach-part-ii.html">Part II: Finding the right coach.</a></strong></font></p> <p><font size="2"><em></em></font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-81715383229248670762014-04-24T17:28:00.001-03:002014-04-24T17:30:13.716-03:00Creeping towards Friday on little cat feet<p><font size="2">I made it through the dreaded goodbye lunch at job #1 by yakking with my friends as if we were having any other lunch. I love my work friends and they are pretty much the only things I’ll miss from here (and, bonus: you can take friendships with you when you leave!) I’m not sure why I dreaded the lunch that much. I think I feel guilty about leaving this career for the second time in 5 years and I guess I imagined that realization would be hanging like a cloud over my head the entire lunch? </font></p> <p><font size="2">Onward and upward!</font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">I’m setting up appointments with a career transition coach I’ve used in the past. She’s AWESOME at helping me sort out a plan of action, roping in my daydreamy thoughts and forcing me to articulate my values so I can avoid falling into the same ole’ same ole’ career/trap just because it’s familiar and I keep thinking that it couldn’t have been THAT bad last time I did it (note to future self: it really was that bad – trust your gut).</font></li></ul> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">I was just offered another small job for the Fall that will bring my income back into a near-normal range, at least for that semester. I’m relieved, but then the second I feel relief in not being immediately “in trouble” I start feeling stress for only just “getting by.” Sick of worry, sick of stress (and this is only my first day back in the “transition” trenches…)</font></li></ul> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">Two months ago I found out I didn’t get in to a program in my wannabe-new-career field – I can’t even describe the amount of work I’d put into it, and the disappointment I felt at the rejection. But today I have a… what would you call it, a rejection interview? --- with someone who can go over my application with me and hopefully tell me what went wrong. I’m half convinced they’re going to tell me I’m too old (no, that would probably be illegal) – or that my background in former-career, no matter how prestigious, isn’t good enough? Or, worst of all: there was nothing wrong with my application, but the numbers weren’t in my favor. That one’s the worst because there’s nothing you can do about it, no action plan, and applying again would feel like banking on a winning lottery ticket. </font></li></ul> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">I managed to mix a salad dressing for my spinach salad that, when combined with the chopped apples and chicken I threw on top, smelled exactly like the noxious chemical I’m using at work this week. I’m starving, completely unable to eat the salad with the poison smelling dressing, and forced to eat leftover Easter candy to make my stomach stop growling. My 5 year old self thinks this is great news, but my 40 year old belly says nuh-uh. :(</font></li></ul> <p> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2">It’s still Thursday. It’s been Thursday forever. It may always be Thursday. </font></li></ul> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-28193017417518111252014-04-23T11:35:00.001-03:002014-04-23T11:35:53.028-03:00The tedious “goodbye lunch” scenario at work…<p><font size="2">Part of my main job ending this week is having to endure the dreaded goodbye lunch, which I’m so not looking forward to. </font></p> <p><font size="2">Anticipated tedious goodbye lunch conversations:</font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2"><strong>“So what comes next for you"?”</strong></font></li></ul> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>Fake answer:</strong> “Omg, so much I don’t even know where to start! Teaching, learning, so much going on! Oh, I meant to ask you about your [insert clever subject change] – how is that going, anyway?” </font></p></blockquote> <blockquote> <p><font size="2"><strong>Real answer:</strong> “Pretty much fear and uncertainty. Self doubt. Questioning everything. Some prayer, probably. Twenty job applications all hanging in limbo. Unemployment office visit outlook: likely!” </font></p></blockquote> <li><font size="2">-- actually that’s going to be the only lunch conversation, repeated every time someone new comes in the room, followed by a lot of awkward silences and passing of potato chips. </font> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2">--> SO not looking forward to this. </font></p> <p><img src="http://media.giphy.com/media/rhnTF5JSqYLmM/giphy.gif"></p> </li> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-64303341141793249012014-04-22T23:52:00.001-03:002014-04-22T23:57:20.814-03:00Career Transition Stage: terrified<p> </p> <p><font size="2">It’s T minus 2 days until my main job comes to an end. </font></p> <p><font size="2">I’m at that part of the poster filled with inspirational slogans that tells you to shake your life up! do what you love! leave behind the things that aren’t working for you! ---> and I’m sitting here with a large glass of wine, trying to relax, feeling a knot in my stomach, feeling so lost. </font></p> <p><font size="2">Is it okay to call your mom when you’re lost, if you’re 40? Well, I did. </font><font size="2">I called looking for some comfort. Some direction. Actually I just wanted someone to tell me what to do. If someone else were to take control of my life for a few months right now until I’ve gotten back on track? I wouldn’t mind so much. </font></p> <p><font size="2">My mom wasn’t so helpful. As soon as she heard that I was stressed she tried to change the subject. She’s of the mind that if you don’t acknowledge someone’s feelings, then they won’t feel them. </font></p> <blockquote> <p><font size="2">[example: “dad’s depressed, but don’t mention it to him in case he latches on to that thought and starts using depressing words to describe himself!” –> me: “I’m thinking dad already knows he’s depressed, and it’s sad that everyone around him is pretending he’s not." –> mom: “Oh he’ll snap out of it, as long as we carry on like things are fine.”]</font></p></blockquote> <p><font size="2">And that’s pretty much what happened to me as well. Emma’s stressed – uh oh, quick, tell a story and take her mind off it, even through she called because she wants to talk about it. Don’t let her. If she doesn’t say it, it’s not real.</font></p> <p><font size="2">In any case, lack of mother comfort aside, it’s a dark night of the soul. Red wine helps, as always. A long run in the morning will help even more. </font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-17299314065132969132014-04-21T11:34:00.001-03:002014-04-21T11:34:43.711-03:00Life of this empty nester: Easter weekend edition<p> </p> <ul> <li><font size="2"><strong>Volunteering with the Audubon Society:</strong> Highly recommend! It’s outside (win) and birds tend to nest in the spring in beautiful locations (win!) and it’s not only fun but really useful, too. And there’s nothing I love more than learning something new about the world.</font></li></ul> <p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxemzoikWxl0jB2A6J6NMIId1VinEFCNw2a8KV2IBmNctRKAUUmy1JZCf7QXIyq18LG11TuaXYa-LjzBZl4RL4PEfJE2AZIay6of6kJ7rXL4KGEdEjIeWFDQ2RQ3KG2QwnS-s38YxyFrpb/s1600-h/IMG_1332%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="IMG_1332" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="IMG_1332" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpHa-PpNmr2BVozGRaPLrQfvhjOfgv8vWrK4ZS_Q0yDkLWUJlUNVMLkOa6Re7NUR_qJQUX4I9PUlZvPRasQ7GH2DoQa1jX4jOeXFkadSGlYjmSsiEuZBuSvzxzP4mLo0ZSeUg1qgnfwM1s/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="183"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSlIGSUiR7S8ShUAphKuxk9FQe97VRKU9Idl3WbxyS-vVTMnRUOzT9LK3E-m1r3ZIpJy9Lkrrhw19mhG7GJWh-EvpkA5ssc1zzFbkYmze2_7LKkrdPEGpNBl5vDiQyiJFcRxcAoQaaUU92/s1600-h/IMG_1331%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="IMG_1331" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="IMG_1331" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOGZx2Fw8bxFoN0pic3R3fM2lsL7H-jgxVgO6dwqWZAPFVMOkkzzAGZbMSSe51EPFg3cJbTIOLt7FfzUSzNN6Zc2-JDxemzKWfShaupWhIzAGwtrOhwZKPfGzW1XWiP6K2tURZx2iFs3MC/?imgmax=800" width="183" height="244"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyTZr_8Kfl_ynn4rYVs7HWB6EvW_Tmn2yVXSHn-6euR3ortdNRdoKifqkvDKjm95I0WsIQmBnE17Pyidp0Oy5b8AyXYkZ3rp9Xd3fDUCIPGs8pHwhBjwn8iUHzbcnDiBi5cQadAKvH3j-d/s1600-h/IMG_1260%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="IMG_1260" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="IMG_1260" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFDWPUrnsEi7v_SKg1jdTMTfIcfJ8KvXlPjF2h9shkCH1EukEjfrn-lAFp1utMvG7ZS1Y3Rsx3ATQ2ztnV_Oo9DkL5daY3E1G9iOIf9O5-sGRqJAXTRWAOaXPPortrhEuS9qiE_d3dHGC1/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="183"></a></p> <p> </p> <ul> <li><strong>Night running:</strong> I totally consider myself a morning person, but there’s something about running into the sunset, then finishing your cool down in the twilight of a twisting road through the woods. Creepy? Yes. Awesome? YES.</li></ul> <p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWLthWXyDeJ3hzuKm7omo8KrqTa4tyoD1W__eddAYyumVsfkj-3mwcZJ9X6qIiewhKBn0D-X9nUwTYYvNBKQYaZ2qGdDFAXA4iBGgjS1aSvc__2qqtox1ls3sitgOH5xm8TjMhJv9w4J_V/s1600-h/IMG_1337%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="IMG_1337" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="IMG_1337" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0fYpdKq2eUq7Cl5MLQ-tFSQxVbWjhjekgBgBemmpympel7dnCwNsQFxfB81eexvlkzyY64wpWrgUugZqcSUMJc6LG6WUKuJIBMBbxQVBchDTNWzrBt0TLvEv2sHDgAIZCNIWPwYMdNhwL/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="244"></a></p> <p> </p> <ul> <li><strong>My secret vice:</strong> When I have to work on weekends or holidays (ie. all the time) I treat myself to a VENTI vanilla latte and and a favorite audiobook on my 1+ hour commute. Today’s audiobook? Harry Potter 5: The Incredibly Annoying Teen Years. </li></ul> <p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDQP_I4UB-dQfM6NR3shVTqdjHUMy9al3bcu0k2AG-5F7mmGjiFmAdZp0ewRS00TYUiqA0nqJDYoAIJPef7PopsOIWd9zpM36oBOyKJaYKy0dQ4AQy0TqvAC7alZgNbjnG3HAuAGLELGPv/s1600-h/IMG_1300%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="IMG_1300" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="IMG_1300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKUF69KIqEBO3P2nE-IdEOcZzHpAzdi4j21rGQH-EPgs8vTMcZB3V0qrTORApm6Wc2CpomdfXb1jGOCt7bDRxFde5YL_t2qAZx2sZqsosQgSQd_t3Y60VMHBfehM7ZdVeekSY_yd9Z662h/?imgmax=800" width="183" height="244"></a></p> <ul> <li>Not pictured: the ten gazillion pictures of the cat I sent to Ky. I’m such a mom. “The cats miss you!” ---> “I miss the cats so much!!” </li></ul> <blockquote> <p><em><font size="2">[I’ve checked in with my students about this, and it appears I am not alone in communicating my parental emotions through the medium of the imagined emotional life of the cats. Evidence: my students can immediately access no less than 10 snapchat images of their dog/cat/long eared rabbit with shameless “Buster sends you kisses!” addendums from their parents, and they HAVE TAKEN SCREENSHOTS of them. True story.]</font></em></p></blockquote> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-68299846007496501222014-04-20T09:44:00.001-03:002014-04-20T09:45:29.325-03:00Empty nesting milestone: the first summer home<p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p><font size="2">Whoa, can that be right? It’s nearly the end of April and fast approaching Spring semester finals week, which means the end of the academic year is right around the corner. And college students everywhere, steeped in independence and friends and dorm life and cafeteria eating, will beeline to their childhood bedrooms and parents’ presence and healthy fridges filled with a finite amount of non-magically-appearing food.</font></p> <p><font size="2"></font> </p> <p align="center"><strong><font size="2">--> Truth be told, I’m a little nervous.</font></strong></p> <p align="center"><strong><font size="2"></font></strong> </p> <p><font size="2">Out of necessity, I’ve developed a load of child-free routines for myself. </font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2">working as late as I want without guilt</font></li> <li><font size="2">spending $40 a week on produce and coffee and olives and eggs, and $0 a week on microwave popcorn, mac-n-cheese and cereal</font></li> <li><font size="2">being okay with an empty fridge because I haven’t had time to shop and living off the last of the dozen eggs for three days straight (yikes, but this has happened more than once…)</font></li> <li><font size="2">using the dining-room table as a home office (hello tax forms that I haven’t cleared away yet!) </font></li> <li><font size="2">filling in my free hours with running, running and more running</font></li> <li><font size="2">…and working out after work, even if that means I don’t get home until 9pm</font></li> <li><font size="2">…and going for long walks along the water front late at night when I need to think through the problems of my day with fresh (freezing) air blowing in my face and a stretch of sidewalk to stride along</font></li></ul> <p><font size="2">And of course Ky has developed a lot of mom-free routines, many of which I’m sure will be a surprise to me this summer. </font></p> <ul> <li><font size="2">eating unhealthy food at will (I know this one already)</font></li> <li><font size="2"> ??? activities at ??? late hours </font></li> <li><font size="2">????</font></li> <li><font size="2">????</font></li> <li><font size="2">(realizing that for all our talking, I’m not exactly sure WHAT these new routines are)</font></li></ul> <p><font size="2">I’m nervous about the two of us – once so melded and in sync – trying to work our new [empty nest (me) / college student (Ky)] selves into a cohesive family unit again.</font></p> <p><font size="2">I’m nervous that I’ve been compartmentalizing since Ky has been gone, and when we’re a family unit again I’ll realize how much I miss being a Mom with a growing chick in my nest, and it will be even harder to let my child go next year.</font></p> <p><font size="2">I’m also a little nervous of the opposite: that I’ve grown so used to my single routine, having another person in the house who needs attention and time and effort will require a lot of effort I’m no longer used to giving. </font></p> <p align="center"><strong><font size="2">--> I am also soooooo excited!</font></strong></p> <p align="left"><font size="2">Half of my professional life operates on an academic calendar. This means that (aside from 8 million other plans) I will have more freedom in my summer than I ever have before! </font></p> <p align="left"><font size="2">I’m thinking: camping and traveling and long walks and talks on the beach, road trips and “car food” and sunshine and shorts, swimming and biking, campfires and things toasted on long sticks, “what’s that noise? are there bears here?” middle of the night paranoia, visiting grandparents and finding people to watch the cats while we’re away, wondering if this is the year we should install a window air conditioner and not making a decision before the weather turns cool again and putting the idea off until next year… again… half marathons and tourist traffic and sand in the car and citronella candles and outdoor concerts and wind whistling through the screens at night. Family. Life. Memories. Togetherness. </font></p> <p align="left"><font size="2">I can’t wait. :)</font></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-81229848342340700252014-04-18T13:56:00.000-03:002014-04-19T13:19:04.398-03:00This is life. Do what you love.<br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Remember when <a href="http://www.holstee.com/pages/manifesto" target="_blank">The Holstee Manifesto</a> was really popular?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I’ve spent a lot of time pondering this.</span> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>If you don’t like something, change it. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>If you don’t like your job, quit.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I am currently in the midst of “quitting” my job (but not really – in my line of work there are finite contracts, and I simply let my contract come to an end without doing anything to renew it – ok, that’s quitting).</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Thoughts on quitting: it’s terrifying. I mean it’s really terrifying to be so highly trained for a certain line of work, and to be 40-mmmbl and trying to leave that work behind.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve been told this is “immature”</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve been told this is irresponsible (and I agree with this one in a variety of ways)</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve been told that everyone goes through a period of career questioning – usually in their early 40’s, and equivalent to a mid life crisis – and that the worst thing I could do would be to take it seriously enough to act on it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">And out of all of those bulleted thoughts, the things I’ve told myself about leaving are even worse. Harsher. And possibly true, too. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>The reality</b>: “if you don’t like your job – quit” sounds like solid logic and common sense, and is easy to tell another person, and is easy to reminisce about if you have done it in the past **and it all worked out for you, and you are now looking back at it from a good place in life** </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>...but the reality is SO MUCH DIFFERENT.... </b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>The reality</b> for me is that leaving my work and reaching for something more meaningful to me is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">It has me questioning my work ethics, my maturity, my responsibility, my role as a mother, my role as the leader of our family and the support system for my (grown) child. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve felt lost. I’ve felt like a failure. I’ve felt like a fool, an idiot, a person who is wasting their life, a person who has been left behind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve worked two jobs for two years now to save money – this has led to me falling asleep while in the act of eating my dinner for the first time in my life since I was in diapers. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve worked the equivalent of a third job trying to move more fully into my preferred career (unsuccessfully so far). </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve taken classes, invested money, time, and SO much energy into trying to make this move. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I’ve encountered failure and loss, disappointment and embarrassment, fear and insecurity. Hope and excitement, then loss of hope and regret. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Six months from now this may turn into an inspirational story. If I succeed, this will be the part of the story where the hero(ine) climbs the mountain, falls, scrambles back to their feet, falls again – all with inspiration music playing the background. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">A year from now I could very well be writing about how leaving my job was the best thing I’ve ever done. I could be a success story. I could be proof that <a href="http://www.holstee.com/pages/manifesto">The Holstee Manifesto</a> is totally legit and we should all live our lives this way. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">But I thought I should record for posterity what it actually feels like to live your way into the success story. It’s hard. It’s so, so hard. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-87587376931845441652014-04-18T10:10:00.004-03:002014-04-19T13:02:54.635-03:00It's Friday aka "Give myself a break" day<span style="font-size: small;">As of this morning I'm officially SICK of judging myself so harshly every day</span>.<br />
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This started in an unlikely way - I checked the new releases on Netflix for April (I'm way behind) and the movie The English Patient popped up. Oh man I LOVED that movie when it came out! I couldn't think of anything more tragic and romantic and achingly sad than the story of Katherine and Count Almasy. And I also loved the innocence and depth of Hana and Kip's affair and it sparked years of a crazy mad crush on Naveen Andrews.<br />
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I finished a grueling day of work on Thursday. Wednesday was a 15 hour day. Thursday was a haze of teaching, a migraine, medication that made me sick to my stomach, an incredibly painful nap in the front seat of my car, training one of my grad students in a tiny box of a fume hood with pain shooting up my neck, an hour + commute home, and massive medication taken with (why? don't know) a beer.<br />
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I wrapped myself in heavy socks and a robe and bundled under my down comforter and turned to the comforts of the dessert, Katherine Clifton's arrival and Count Almasy's deep dive into an excruciating infatuation that ultimately leads to pain and death all around. I love the story. I love the colors and the tints the movie was shot in, I love the casting, I love the music, I love the pacing and I love feeling every painful emotion evoked.<br />
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Immediately upon feeling these things, my mind reaches for judgment.<br />
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<li>this is about an affair - that's not romantic</li>
<li>this is the movie equivalent of teen angst, haven't you outgrown this?</li>
<li>would you even admit to someone you still like this movie?</li>
<li>shouldn't you be doing applications/grading/cleaning/at least watching a documentary and learning something?</li>
<li>haven't you outgrown these emotions?</li>
<li>here you are, wool socks and robe, alone in bed crying over angsty characters in a movie - nice, no wonder you're single...</li>
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On and on. I can't believe how my go-to position for myself is to judge every. single. thing. I. think. or do.<br />
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I don't know if I feel like judging myself keeps me honest, or keeps my standards up?<br />
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It doesn't! It makes me feel like crap about myself and it sabotages even relatively innocent moments like enjoying a movie under the covers after two hellishly long days of hard work.<br />
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My goal for this beautiful Friday?<br />
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Give myself a break.<br />
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<li>If I like the English Patient and <strike>even</strike> (<strike>somehow</strike>) find Ralph Fiennes sexy in it --> cool.</li>
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<li>If I drink too much coffee with too much delicious creamer in it --> it's great that I can enjoy it, especially considering how hard I work out and run I totally deserve a treat.</li>
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<li>If I forget to bring medicine from home and have to spend a fortune buying back up medicine? It happens, and my emergency money is there for that purpose. </li>
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<br />
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<li>Too tired to call my dad, even though it's on my to-do list? Missed the post office to drop of Ky's Easter box? Forgot to take my clothes out of the washer and have to re-wash them because they smell stale now? --> Life happens, my family loves me and they know I love them, the phone will be there tomorrow and a second clothes washing will make everything fresh again.</li>
</ul>
Off for an imperfect run on this overcast but thankfully FRIDAY morning! <br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The scene: this morning, coffee in
hand, reading CNN. Trying not to take in some of the more shock/horror focused
headlines, my eyes caught on something that pinged with a lot of my recent
thoughts about life:</span></span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt;"><a href="http://www.cnn.com/2014/04/01/travel/frontiers-exploration/index.html?iref=allsearch">http://www.cnn.com/2014/04/01/travel/frontiers-exploration/index.html?iref=allsearch</a></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;">Clicking through, I was
really intrigued to read this quote from “ <a href="http://www.robinsbooks.co.uk/" target="_blank">Dr. Robin Hanbury-Tenison</a>,
one of the greats of British exploring…” </span></span></div>
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explorer-scientist. Then you are actually contributing to saving the world, to
enlightening people to what is wrong and campaigning," says the
77-year-old, who has written more than 20 books on his adventures, most
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<li><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>First thought:</b>
How can I immediately be known as “one of the greats of American exploring” and
lead expeditions? </span></span></li>
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<li><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Second thought: </b>I love what he says about being an explorer-scientist and that it’s
different from just being a tourist! Yes, we are SO on the same wavelength Dr.
Hanbury-Tenison!!</span></span></li>
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If I wrote to Hanbury-Tenison, would he write back?</span></span></li>
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His name is a clickable link! </span></span></li>
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<li><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Fifth thought:</b>
… and it goes to a website about him, promoting his many, many, many books,
which I shall now jump into, request from library, check for on better world
books and….</span></span></li>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">--> This is the point where I go from getting excited
about an idea – <i>there are still people
alive who are considered by the world at large to be “explorers” and they are
promoting hands-on citizen science that links adventure/exploration with
science and discovery!!!!!</i> – to a state of being completely lost in the
details. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">--> My inner monologue starts telling me that:</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>This man will
never write back to me if I write to him</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>I will never be a
great explorer</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>This is yet
another immature idea to latch on to that will keep me from living a fully
formed adult, responsible life</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>…and in any case,
I don’t have any room left for more books in my house – I am at twice my
carrying capacity</span></span></div>
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</span>…and more than that,
I barely have time to read anymore, </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>…so when I get
his books they will sit on the floor, gathering dust, </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">o<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span>…and each time I
walk past them and my eyes fall on them, I will feel a stab of guilt that: </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">- I spent money on them</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">- I haven’t read them yet</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">- they contain tales of adventure I will never have for
myself</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">- because I was not born into the right age for this/not
good enough for this/no one will want me in this position…</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Clearly, I need to be
inspired by this and not have my mind race forward with thoughts of gloom and
doom. It IS exciting, and what the heck. I am going to write a letter to Dr.
Hanbury-Tenison. I think I’m going to write letters to all of my sources of
extreme inspiration, and simply tell them how inspired I am by them. Why not?
If anyone ever wrote me a letter like that I’d be so touched and pleased. So it
shouldn’t be about having them write back to me. It should be about me reaching
out and telling them how they’ve enriched my mind and my life.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Deal? </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Deal.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><u><br /></u></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><u>Emma’s inspirational letter
writing campaign, list of <s>targets </s>recipients:</u></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">1.<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span><a href="http://www.robinsbooks.co.uk/" target="_blank">Robin Hanbury-Tenison</a></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">2.<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span><a href="http://carlzimmer.com/" target="_blank">Carl Zimmer</a></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">3.<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">
</span><a href="http://www.janegoodall.org/" target="_blank">Jane Goodall</a> (who
I did in fact meet and talk to, 2 years ago, and made such a hyper oinking geek
of myself that I owe it to myself to send the same basic message I was trying
to get across [essentially: she has inspired me] in written format)</span></span></div>
</blockquote>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-2614263121422589882014-04-13T18:55:00.004-03:002014-04-13T19:04:53.823-03:00<br />
My list of grievances:<br />
<br />
<ol>
<li>Taxes</li>
<li>Money</li>
<li>Lack of ANY forward progress in career transition</li>
<li>Lack of energy</li>
<li>Lack of call backs on the 10+ job inquiries I made in the last 2 months. </li>
<li>Lack of Ky in my life at the moment</li>
<li>Taxes (deserve to be mentioned twice)</li>
<li>that I'm inside writing a list of grievances instead of outside running (while waiting for my state TAX page to load, and crash, and reload, and recrash... ugh)</li>
<li>I can't think of anything I want to eat, and I'm trying to cut out alcohol, so I'm biting my nails to reveal places no nail should be made to reveal</li>
</ol>
<br />
My list of happy stuff:<br />
<br />
<br />
<ol>
<li>SO much time with friends this weekend. Booyah for the former (still, but different) introvert...</li>
<li>Spent yesterday afternoon running and this morning walking on the beach in the sun! Yes!</li>
<li>The last of the stuff I had to do at work kinda, sorta, maybe worked?</li>
<li>Cutting out alcohol has positively impacted my weight - and by positively I mean negatively, on the number scale...</li>
<li>I still have time and sunlight for a run today</li>
<li>I have Harry Potter 4 audiobook loaded on my phone, and when I run I'll get to hear about the Quidditch world cup!</li>
<li>Ky sounded super happy in our last phone call, & in our last 10 texts - and sent a cute picture, too! Sweet!</li>
<li>I'm giving up on the state tax filing web page since it's a prompt & update page and it has taken 35 minutes for me to agree that my date of birth and social security number remain the same from last year's taxes.... so no guilt in letting the site spin while I"m off running, right?</li>
<li>There are sparrows in the bushes out my back window and they look very happy to be hopping around in the afternoon spring sunshine, and soon I will join them (?! not in bushes though)</li>
<li>I have now moved my tax/blog operation upstairs to the bathroom, where I am perched on the side of the tub soaking my cold feet in a hot bath whilst precariously balancing my laptop on my actual lap. Awesome on so many levels. Also I'm drinking coffee. Mmmm. </li>
<li>late edit: I actually tracked an animal today! I forgot about that. Part of my morning beach walk. 7 year old me would be SO impressed!! </li>
</ol>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-40060587974094909972014-04-13T18:13:00.001-03:002014-04-13T18:13:31.209-03:00Whyyyyy taxes?It's beautiful and sunny out for practically the first time in SIX MONTHS and I'm sitting at my dining room table, both table and I are covered in papers and calculators and diet coke bottles, and my feet are cold because the sun doesn't quite make it to the patch of floor under my table.<br />
<br />
Also, I owe money.<br />
<br />
In two different states.<br />
<br />
And I'm eating peanut butter out of the jar to cope with my tax induced pain.<br />
<br />
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I’m sure I’m not the first person to say this, but the problem
with accomplishing a huge lifelong dream is that on the other side of that
accomplishment is the realization that, for the time being, you no longer have
a huge lifelong dream pulling you forward. </div>
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<br /></div>
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It seems like the worst kind of first world problem to cry
that all your dreams have come true and now you have to go through the process
of creating new ones. Who could possibly feel sorry for that kind of lament? </div>
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<br /></div>
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So I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, since on
paper I’ve accomplished everything I’ve dreamed of, but somehow I don’t feel
like I’ve come to the end of the line yet. I still feel pulled forward by
things that have, on paper, already been “accomplished”</div>
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<br /></div>
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If I had to put words to the vague bucket list I had when I
was a little kid it probably would have been something like: </div>
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<ol>
<li><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span>Invent something<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"></span></span></li>
<li><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span>Discover something</li>
</ol>
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I pretty much wanted to be an old-school naturalist, sitting
under a tree in the woods and putting shit together in my head. Why do birds to
X and bees do Y? What animal made those tracks in the mud, and where was it
going, and what was it going to do next?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>(Clearly this would have been my bucket list at age 7 or so, when animal
tracks were the height of burning mystery and discovery – but I still have a huge
fascination for them so really I’m not knocking it)</div>
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<a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/7/75/Animal_tracks.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/7/75/Animal_tracks.jpg" height="150" width="200" /></a></div>
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In my adult life, I managed to check these two items off the
list hundreds of times over. I became a research scientist. I became an
inventor. If my hypothetical ~7 year old me had written a bucket list on a
piece of paper, and internet links didn’t exist yet, I could staple my (boring,
technical) patents to it, and my (equally technical/slightly less boring)
scientific papers to it and honestly say that I’d accomplished all I’d set out
to do in life.</div>
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<br /></div>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz9zP3XBx_t-aZ_iOWHLNdQZWAFc8PjYXNrXuRGFGrOKMlmYkhiuHfAEWhGAOlZ7ypeNtp7S9TFr2NI8GxESHf6CeUZtasVgKGq1uBXiaWzP0x8sOQxmDP5qOU3eBDkYYK-wiy2jJ1gnBv/s1600/more_old_science_stuff.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz9zP3XBx_t-aZ_iOWHLNdQZWAFc8PjYXNrXuRGFGrOKMlmYkhiuHfAEWhGAOlZ7ypeNtp7S9TFr2NI8GxESHf6CeUZtasVgKGq1uBXiaWzP0x8sOQxmDP5qOU3eBDkYYK-wiy2jJ1gnBv/s1600/more_old_science_stuff.jpg" height="320" width="250" /></a></div>
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<a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/1/1c/Naturalist_on_the_River_Amazons_15.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><br /></a></div>
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<br /></div>
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But if that was the end of it, where would I be in life?
What are we if we don’t have our dreams and ideas and hopes for the future
pulling us forward? </div>
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<br /></div>
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I have defined myself by my need to invent things, discover
things – big and small.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t even
care about my patents all that much, aside from being grateful for having that
section on my CV. I’ve “invented” so many more satisfying things in my life
that will never be awarded patents. Workarounds for my backyard hose, a
reinvention of my sprinkler, creative uses for vacation lamp timers, a cat
climbing tree that makes use of an awkward corner near my kitchen. So while the
patents are the tangible “proof” that I’ve accomplished that goal, the heart of
the goal is just a reflection of the heart of who I am. And constantly
expressing that part of me in big and small ways is what makes me happy. Not
just changing my list from:</div>
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</span></span></span>Invent something<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span></div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Discover something </div>
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<br /></div>
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To</div>
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<s><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></s><s>Invent something</s></div>
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<s><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></s><s>Discover something</s></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><br />
It’s like the difference between moving to a country you love, living there,
soaking up the air and water and food, making friends, building<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>a life for yourself there – versus landing at
the airport, dashing out the door, crossing “visit Tahiti”
off your to-do list and then posting to facebook: “DID TAHITI!” </div>
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Maybe my ideal ‘bucket list’ would look a lot more like </div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Keep being a person who loves inventing things</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Never stop discovering </div>
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In that way, they become things that I can never really “scratch
off”, because it becomes more about me always having those things as part of
me. Not a memory, not a picture showing a tangible single accomplishment, not a
one-time goal to touch, but something that reminds me of who I am. </div>
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Then again, maybe bucket lists – good ones (aka ones that
reflect things we really want, regardless of how relatively non-triumphant or
cool they may seem to others) – are a starting point to tell us who we
are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And there’s something so satisfying
about having the kind of list you can scratch off, because that also fills the
human need to see signs of progress. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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This morning I woke up and was thinking about what a “scratch-off”
bucket list would look like for me now. </div>
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I think it would look like this:</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Have visiting professor status at a university in
Tanzania</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Have full time professor status at a university
in US</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Link the two together so I can become a conduit
of ideas and students that enrich their own and each other’s lives and
education and careers</div>
<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l5 level1 lfo5; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">4.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Develop adventure education-based tourism
business where we can all be old-school naturalists together. (what animal DID
make those tracks in the mud, anyway?)</div>
<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l5 level1 lfo5; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">5.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Find ways any interested family member could
help with and benefit from the business</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">6.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Go back to school again for a (specialty)
Masters</div>
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<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">7.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Buy Volkswagen Westfalia to drive around and
car-camp and explore in (if it was good enough for Jane Goodall on the
Serengetti….)</div>
<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="mso-list: l5 level1 lfo5; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">8.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Spend as much time as possible outside work with
my family</div>
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<br />
When I try to translate that list, I feel like I’ve never gotten very far away
from</div>
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<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpFirst" style="mso-list: l2 level1 lfo6; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Invent something</div>
<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="mso-list: l2 level1 lfo6; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Discover something</div>
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</div>
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<br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
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(with the addition of a third)</div>
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<br />
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</div>
<div class="MsoListParagraph" style="mso-list: l2 level1 lfo6; text-indent: -.25in;">
<span style="mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span>Share those things with others <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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<br /></div>
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Maybe finding new ways of checking the same things off my
bucket list forever is really the key to happiness. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-12466876993724195982014-04-06T11:35:00.001-03:002014-04-06T11:35:40.559-03:00Transitions are HARD<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Sitting in my warm bed at 8am, rain pouring down and (happily, if I'm honest) inhibiting today's long run, I'm driven to reflect as obsessively as I have been recently - transitions, empty nesting, huge life change? It's all very hard. So much harder and in so many different ways than I thought it would be.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">If your life were a movie montage, it would be the Rocky run through Philadelphia, or the hard push before the triumphant finish. It's the spice and sweat that adds depth to the sweet, sweet finish.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">But in reality when you have to live through it, it's so confusing and there's no guarantee that you'll have any triumph at all at the end of the day.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Yeah, at first you have confidence that it'll happen.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I had so many plans for the things I was going to accomplish. High on running endorphins I was SURE these things were going to happen and I had endless energy for trying to move myself forward. A few setbacks, missing Ky, questioning myself - a long run, endorphins, a big rally! - more work, more setbacks, more missing Ky, more questioning myself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">After six months? This pattern gets really old. There are only so many rallies I have inside of me in any given time. I wish for a win - ANY kind of win - to get my creativity flowing and my confidence up.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">It's such a different animal changing your life in your 40's than it is in your 20's. Man I used to love reinventing myself. Selling everything I owned and starting over was like molting into a butterfly with cool new patterns and a new home range. But I could do it over and over again, and each new life was an interesting adventure.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Things totally change when you're older. The stakes are higher. What seemed like a cool adventure now just looks flaky to everyone around you. You think about money a lot more. Retirement funds and tuition and the realities of spending years paying for an adventure are pretty well known and have created a lot of negative associations.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I feel, in a way, like this last reinvention should be my last one until I'm an old lady and my flakiness can be called "feisty" and people will marvel and my "moxie" and "spirit" instead of worrying about me and wondering when I'll grow up and settle down. I figure I have about 20 years before that will be a socially acceptable option for me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So if I can get this next transition to work out, I hope I can enjoy it and its many fruits for a couple of decades, at least.</span><br />
<br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">One of the hands-down hardest things for me in the “young
empty nesting” journey is that I am not actually “young”. Compared to those who
hit empty nesting and retirement in roughly the same life stage, yes I am. But
compared to the demographic I keep running into in my day to day life, I’m the
older generation.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Why does this matter?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Because so much of what I want to do, so much of what I’m
trying to accomplish, is simultaneously being attempted by 20-somethings who
are just starting out. And I envy them. I envy them their freedom, their
ability to make mistakes and shrug them off as life lessons, the forgiveness
society and family and friends seem to have for the various failings and
flailings of a person trying out something new and not making a very good job
of it. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">And in the search to start out in a new place, a new career,
a new phase of life – it seems like my companions are either 60-somethings with
their lives figured out, or 20-somethings with their lives completely ahead of
them. And I fall in the middle. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Some of life I’ve figured out. I’m happy with my body. I’m
pretty sure I know what my major strengths and weaknesses are. I know what my
life values are, at least the major ones, and I can look back over the decades
and see how they’ve played out consistently in my choices and my successes and
failures. I have made enough mistakes to have generated a list of the things I
know I no longer want to spend my life doing. I have found places I need to
improve and have invested years, sometimes decades, in trying to improve those
areas. I’ve seen progress, I’ve seen backsliding and I’ve come to terms with
quite a bit of negative/unfairness/ and also know that there have been times
(many times!) I’ve been given chances I didn’t deserve. Bonuses I hadn’t earned
yet. Experiences I hadn’t worked as hard for as others who were sharing those
experiences with me. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">In some ways I feel a little wisdom has crept into my life
over the years. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">But other areas in my life have not been given the same
amount of consideration and growth and room for experience. I’ve been a mother
since I was a college student. I went from a teenager hoping to get into
college to a college student hoping to land a job with benefits to cover my
prenatal OB visits. I went from thinking I should maybe sell all my furniture and
do some world traveling after graduation to buying baby books and a stroller. I
was never a carefree, world-wandering, finding-myself 20-something. I was a
young mother, instead. A hard worker. A grad student juggling a part time job
and a kindergartener. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Any thoughts of “who am I, and where do I fit in the world?”
that would have been completely appropriate for a 22 year old to have, I
stuffed down inside of me while my child ran past me with a pack of other
little kids in our back yard and I sat there feeling like… if I let myself
wonder that, if I really asked myself that question, I might find that I felt
regret or sadness or hopelessness at what turned out to be my destiny of single
motherhood. That in truth, where I fit in the world might not be in a back yard
in a college town, watching my child run past me with a pack of neighborhood
kids. And I felt, at the time, that if I thought those things, it would mean
that I didn’t love my child. That I would be tempting fate to wish for a different
life. That it would make me a bad mother, or that it would mean I regretted Ky’s
presence in the world. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Now, with Ky in college and my motherly love well
established to myself, in myself, over the years, I realize that those thoughts
would have been okay to have. I could have felt simultaneous love for my child,
and regret that I wasn’t a footloose 20-something in a maxi skirt and tank top
taking a train through east Africa and living in hostels. (somehow, this is how I always pictured “traveling
the world” – always in the long skirt and tank top, always on a train, usually
reading a book as the scenery flew past, the book coming in to the fantasy to
show that I’d traveled long enough and with the expectation that I would still
be traveling a long enough time in the future to allow myself not to look at
every passing mile. More miles would come. More scenery would happen. That was
the feel I always had, and stuffed down so I wouldn’t look too closely at it…)</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Anyway, what it comes down to is this. I’ve read that if you
miss a life stage at any point, you feel compelled to live that life stage out
in some form, even when it’s age inappropriate behavior. And I keep that in mind
when I acknowledge that my burning desire right now is to be that woman on the
train, leaning on my backpack, reading a book… but in this version of my
fantasy, I’m now 40 and I know that I should look up more often. No future
miles and sights can be reliably expected, and that acacia tree really has its
own beauty, its own story, that might be different than the 100 I saw in the
past several miles. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">I wonder if it’s possible to live out a life stage I missed,
as a 40-something year old woman, that is normally lived through my the 20-something
year old me who happened to be following a different path back then, and couldn’t
quite make the trip – but more importantly to live that stage in a 40-something
year old way? Can I still take the train? Should I let those dreams go? Can I
still make mistakes, and be forgiven for them? Should I even worry about forgiveness?
Can I use my own strengths to do what I’d dreamed of doing, but do them in a
wiser way?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Can I redefine the 20-something year old experience of
finding my way in a new career, and through new places, as a 40-something year
old woman? </span></span></div>
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-49376853784550644372014-03-27T17:58:00.001-03:002014-03-27T17:58:10.167-03:00Life on the wrong side of the equation<div class="MsoNormal">
What do you do when you've devoted your life to adventure
and discovery and freedom and being open to new things, good things, getting
'away' for weekends and weeks and months and years... and then you find
yourself in your 40's and you haven't built any real security and you think
it's time to do that. I love adventure,
and I crave security. I would love to
have both. I feel the intense desire to find a balance between them, let them
complement each other in my life. </div>
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When I read self help books, it seems like all of them are
telling me to give adventure a try - as if parenting and growing for the first
40 years of my life was supposed to have been all about the opposite. Nesting?
Settling? Safety? And, yes, security? </div>
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But what if I have all that covered already? What if I
already know how to take chances, let go, be free, seek adventure and live a
life of discovery? What about those of us who find our equation tipped in the
opposite direction? Where's the mid life manual that tells us how to seek
commitment, find security, nest, settle? </div>
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Hmmm....</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-59442898738849854122014-03-26T09:34:00.001-03:002014-03-26T09:34:18.179-03:00The more things change...<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">... the more confusing, frustrating, liberating and
intimidating life becomes. Something like that. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've always considered myself to be at my peak during times
of transition, so in a way I'm finding it awfully unfair to be in my early 40's
and experiencing what I'm told is one of life's bigger transitions and finding
myself not quite hitting my stride. It's like one of those off nights with
friends, where for some reason you're not on your game, your jokes fall flat, you
accidentally chose a shirt that itches and you find yourself clock watching at
10pm. Or is that just me? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The last few months have seen even more transition come into
my life. I've always considered myself to be this one thing, with some major
offshoots. I am "a single mom" in a highly specialized and demanding
career. And now I'm still a mom, but different. And the small voice that has
been telling me (and fought down, with some effort) that the "highly
specialized and demanding career" was not meant to be my entire life path
- that voice got so loud with Ky out of the house that it became the only voice
I had to talk to. Okay, I realized. I have to rethink my entire life - not just
the piece that was me as an in-house, hands on mom. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If empty nesting is emotionally fraught and tricky, then
empty nesting and undergoing a career transition is that times 10. After an
adult lifetime internally battling guilt that either my work or my child was
getting the short end of my evaporating energy and attention, I find myself now
with enough time to devote to something entirely, but I'm left with shadows and
uncertainty. Where IS that needy, sucking, energy vortex of a career when I
need it? My life feels so off center without the pull of child, work, child,
work, that I'm like a planet that has lost its moon and whose tides are
degenerating into an untimed free for all. Mountains crumbling and rivers
running uphill. After a lifetime of chafing under a regular schedule and
fighting tooth and nail for adventure and excitement, I now find myself
striving for some small amount of certainty and predictability. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm reaching for a lot of resources in trying to sort this
out. Probably the top 3 this month are: </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">1. I started seeing a therapist. I don't think she's especially good? but after only 3 sessions, maybe this is
normal. What I want is for her to tell me what to do - how to get my life in
gear, what homework to do each night to achieve my goals, how to find a little
of my center of gravity again. What we do is just talk, the way you might over
lunch with a friend. Catch up on the week, what's on your mind, oh yes I
totally understand that, sometimes that's just the way life works, what does
your schedule look like for next week?
--- that sort of thing. This particular resource I'm not super impressed
with yet, but I'm giving it another month to start feeling worth the copay.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">2. This may be silly, but I also got <a href="https://www.tonyrobbins.com/">Tony Robbins PersonalPower II </a>CDs. What drew me was the fact that it's something you're supposed to
listen to once a day AND you have an assignment to do, which speaks to the
overachieving student in me like crazy.
I rolled my eyes a lot through the first part of his schpeil and then
started to get the feeling that he was actually kind of a really nice man who
sincerely wants to help people and has some good intentions and a lot of ideas
to help shake things up, which I desperately need. I want to think about my
life differently because I'm stuck, and I want something I can hang my hat on
every single day, something that makes me feel like I'm moving forward rather
than spinning in circles, so I consider this a total win.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">3. I'm being more open in my friendships about some of my
struggles. I'm a stuffer and a "Oh things are great!! I'm fine!!"
sort of person, so actually telling people "Umm, I'm struggling and things
are kinda sucky at the moment" is a huge step for me. I find some people
withdrawing from me, not knowing how to deal with an Em that's not perfectly
motivated, happy and winning at life every time I turn around. I find some
people issuing the platitudes "it'll be fine, you'll be fine" that
you do when you don't know what to say, but generally wish someone well. I find some people admitting that they too
struggle, they too are finding life a little hard to navigate, and are grateful
that someone else was willing to admit it so they could admit to not being in
top form themselves. This last group has been a lifesaver for me. It's so nice to be able to just not be doing
fine some days - with company and commiseration. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've also been putting myself out there a lot and doing a
lot of that back-of-the-mind thinking you do when you can feel the cogs turning
and you have no idea yet what product they're making in the dark recesses of
your subconscious mind. It's all very mysterious and secretive for now. I hope
my mind reveals its big project soon, as I've only got about 10 days left of
Tony Robbins...</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-59602829928407636772014-01-18T09:49:00.002-04:002014-01-18T14:33:57.076-04:00Heart versus head<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Following your gut is so much easier when you're young, the consequences of failing aren't as life altering, and you haven't had as much negative reinforcement to give you an aversion to making huge leaps and daring moves.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">At risk of sounding like Verdi the snake, I really did used to follow my heart, and it took me to some wonderful places. If it took me someplace I didn't want to be, I'd stew about it for a while and then start to sort of daydream myself into a better story.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Now of course it's all so different. One bad move I made in 2005 had pretty disastrous consequences. It started when I was in a casual long distance relationship and I started to get this feeling that "adults" settled down, put down roots and committed. It's almost as if I felt like I'd been so lucky in my single parent life, had done so many awesome things, that I was somehow supposed to... quit while I was ahead? Maybe that, and then also like... I was being immature by being single. Like being happy and following my heart, which while up until then had been productive and successful, was actually a sign of immaturity and a lack of development. I felt like I was always eating life dessert and never eating my life vegetables. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And I did love the guy I was in the long distance relationship with, and I was with him at a time when these thoughts were really plaguing me. My heart was telling me that I was happy and excited each day as a single mother, and this was how I should try to keep my life as long as humanly possible. And then my head was arguing that I was being childish and spoiled, and "at some point" there should be a home and yard and man and stability, so I should settle down with the long distance guy. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />And don't get me wrong - there was something attractive about the thought of stability that came from settling down. But it was only attractive, in my experience, as a way station or a resting place. A settled relationship seemed like a place to recharge in comfort before I got back to the things I'd rather be doing. And I couldn't picture a man who would be willing to love me, live with me, be my anchor and comfort - but also let me travel, have adventures and choose my own path. I've never been in close proximity to a relationship that worked that way. And long distance guy didn't fit that mold in the least. He wanted a wife that stayed in place.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />After a year of heart (happy single!) versus head (I should settle down), I opted for settling down with the long distance guy. I rationalized that in a way I was following my heart by being with him - in some kind of twisted way, if I looked at it from a certain angle and didn't look too closely - my heart might be craving stability. Only there were practical issues - some blended family hurdles - and so we settled uneasily on some kind of forced limbo where I moved halfway closer to him geographically. It was miserable. I was miserable. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />I settled for a job at 'fabulously important place', which I hated, and moved into a house that felt like 'not my house', and settled on a few more life choices for the good of the relationship that made me feel like a trapped rat. I continued to rationalize that I was doing all of this incredibly unlikeable stuff in order to get to the ultimate place that would (if I didn't look too closely at it) make me truly happy (sort of) - which was the relationship and the stability it would bring. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And then of course the relationship dissolved out from under me, and there was no ultimate goal anymore to the trapped miserable place I found myself. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />After that came months of being so lost, I couldn't even articulate to anyone how lost I was. I was living in a beautiful place, I was working at a place that would look phenomenal on my CV. I was given back my freedom to move freely around the planet. </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Only I was completely frozen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For the first time in my life I had spent years building up a life for myself that was absolutely and totally WRONG for me. I had completely failed. I had (I thought) listened to my heart and hit a brick wall in a dark alley going 100 miles an hour. I found myself completely unable to make even the smallest decision for myself after that. I couldn't make eye contact with people in the grocery store. I couldn't make a decision on whether or not to go on a weekend camping trip, let alone jet myself and Ky to some other country. I felt like... I don't know, like going out on a limb was the most dangerous thing in the world. And when making eye contact with the cashier in a store suddenly feels like going out on a limb, that's a troublesome place to find yourself. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Never in my life have I felt so stuck at the bottom of a well. Then followed a domino effect of bad decisions knocking into worse ones, toppling everything along my path. It was a horrible time in my life. I no longer trusted my instincts. I no longer trusted my life. And - because I'd spent so long convincing myself that the "settling down" plans I had been making were the plans of a mature adult, I felt like a life failure at maturity and adulthood. And I felt like I was somehow obligated to keep pressing on that path, but it was so counter to my real needs that I was always lost and churning inside.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Part of empty nesting for me is trying to get in touch with my gut instincts again. I've been trying for years, but so much fear has built up that it's been hard for me to tell the difference between my gut telling me something is wrong for me, and my fear holding me back from something good for me, giving me a false stop sign. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />Because going with your gut sometimes is scary. It's scary, exhilarating and challenging. And figuring out if you're that kind of scared - the kind that precedes an awesome, terrifying, exhilarating choice... or the "red flag warning" kind of scared that tells you not to do something ultimately bad for you - is really hard when you're not tuned in to the differences. Your mind can convince you either kind of fear is the other. I've been stuck in that tug of war for way too long.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I've always envisioned having a core of things that are incredibly important to me. Things I genuinely love, things I genuinely believe in. Those form the heart of me. Anything I do that keeps close to that heart, that stems from it genuinely and never strays too far, are the right things for me. Sometimes I end up traveling so far from my core, doing something I dislike, thinking that where I'm going is ultimately going to return and touch the core again, and that I can just "bear with it" for the greater good, etc etc - that never works. I get so far out that I'm miserable. And I can no longer remember why I thought running so far away would bring me closer. And the farther I go, the less I can remember the way back, the less I can hear and feel that core. It's a terrible place to be. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Working back to it is very hard. And over and over I have to remind myself that when I get close to it again it will be scary. But it's a different kind of scary than being far away is. I have to be careful and re-learn how to tell the difference.</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-51274620204981237242014-01-15T10:47:00.000-04:002014-01-15T10:47:39.287-04:00Empty nesting milestone: out of the trenches<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Having Ky leave on the bus to head back to college was, as anticipated, pretty hard. I'd gotten used to being in my role of Mom to a teenager again and it's the role I think I've loved the most in parenting. I know, every stage (except age 3) was "my favorite" and that hasn't changed over the years. I still think each year is my favorite.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />But I've never felt like an especially natural, wonderful mother. At least not compared to those who post every triumphant and perfect moment on blogs. As a single mother, I never really knew if I was doing it right. I didn't have a partner to bounce things off of, and I never had the chance to take a time out to reconsider or observe things with any perspective except "in the trenches."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But parenting Ky as a teenager has always felt really good, really natural and right. I felt like maybe 8 times out of 10 I really was making the right choices, saying somewhere in the neighborhood of the right things. And for me, who was never a 10/10, hit-it-out-of-the-park-each-time mother, 8/10 felt like HUGE success. Near perfection at times!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />So yeah. Watching my teen stumble onto the bus with a raft of other teens going back to college, in their new Christmas boots and North Face jackets, dragging skis and kicking backpacks and duffles along the filthy bus station floor as they texted furiously and drowned out the bus driver's announcements with shiny looking Beats that cost more than the Frye boots I splurged on for my birthday. Ky in 4 year old Doc Martins and LL Bean coat and a fuzzy blanket wrapped over shoulders like a long trailing cape.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The drive home for me filled with exhaustion, sadness, missing Ky already, looking forward in some small way to having the house and my time to myself. This will be "the usual". </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Back to contemplating the view from outside the trenches of daily hands-on parenting. </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2232452525493401548.post-26937507398442955302014-01-13T23:02:00.001-04:002014-01-13T23:02:17.623-04:00Oh I wish I still had a little baby<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I got tears in my eyes reading <a href="http://religion.blogs.cnn.com/2014/01/13/pope-tells-moms-its-ok-to-breastfeed-in-church/?hpt=hp_t2">this article reporting Pope Francis encouraging breastfeeding in church</a>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I don't practice a formal religion, though I was brought up Catholic by a mother who was schooled in a convent, and a grandmother who was raised in a Catholic orphanage and served the Church so fiercely and sweetly in her life that you'd have thought she was a nun. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When Ky and I traveled to Italy, we visited the Vatican. Pope John Paul II was still interred and they hadn't yet finished building his weird Sleeping-Beauty-esque eternal sarcophagus in St Peter's Basilica. (In fact there was a "coming soon!" sign over the construction area where his glass coffin would soon reside - as if he were a Sephora franchise in a mall). My main memory of the Sistine Chapel? "No photos! No photos!" being yelled by the guards. I barely took in the beauty for all the simmering anger and stress. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />Pope Benedict wasn't a very familiar or beloved figure then. When we were in the Vatican, we heard about 100x more "Pope John Paul" references than "Pope Benedict" and Benedict's wares weren't selling very well in the gift shop (the grace note?). I don't think people ever connected to him. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When Pope Francis was elected I loved him first for the name he chose (it's a family name for me - Ky was nearly a Francis!) and then for the things he said, and then for the acts he did. Each time he makes the news, I feel even more warmly towards him. </span><br />
<br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It makes me wish that Ky were a little baby again. That I could breast feed if needs be in the Vatican, knowing the Pope had given it his blessing, knowing that he'd made the world just that little bit safer and happier and more real. </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05908548732625945705noreply@blogger.com0